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At about 2pm yesterday, I started having chest pains. Squeezing pains. Shortness of breath. I waited a while, and called 911. Went to the hospital. Taken right in due to lupus history and heart murmur. Blah Blah Blah…ran tests…did Nitro pills, which helped. After 2 nitro pills, was given a patch. It was now 8pm..doc comes in, wants me to stay for at least 24 hours. I freak…Rich was there, and he told me to stay…so I did, and I was doing OK. Till they took me upstairs at about 10pm. There I was, in a room by myself, uncomfortable in my hospital garb, starting to freak out (BTW, the chest pains were NOT anxiety). I was hungry, as I hadn’t eaten all day, and they brought me a sandwhich…I cannot eat bread! I wont eat bread! I was alone in the room….it was hot. I called Rich three times…"I’m coming home….ok, I will stay"…."I’m coming home…OK, I will stay"…."I’m coming home…this time I mean it..meet me out front". And I BAILED! Went into the bathroom, changed back to my clothes…yanked the leads that were on me…left the IV cath in (I had no drip running yet…DUH…gonna get dehydrated!). I grabbed my purse, and left my room. The elevators were right across from my room, which thankfully was at the end of the hall…and I got out of there. Of course, it was close to midnight…the hospital was locked up like a fortress, so I had to sneak out through the BACK parking lot, and walk around. Not easy…I hadn’t eaten all day, and I was weak from laying down, from the pain I had in my back, and from the Nitro. In the parking lot, I yanked my IV cath…blood everywhere….great, gonna pass out in the parking lot. Should have done that when I got home, but I was panicking, and wanted everything off of me. Dirty hospital. Waiting a few minutes for Rich and came home. I was in the bathroom washing off when the hospital called "where are you…" DUH! Told them I wasn’t comfortable there (truth) and had to come home. OK, all is well. Then the hospital calls at 2am, 4am and 6am…I was sleeping the last 2 times. I guess they were checking up on me…I don’t know…or they "found" something. I know, I was stupid for walking out, but I could NOT do it. I cant stand being alone, and the nurses were all mean to me. I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep, and even though the ER promised me medication, I never got it. If I sound disassociated right now, it’s because I am. I am also really tired. I am stupid for leaving, but I do have an appointment with a Cardiologist next week, and if I didnt have that, then I wouldn’t have left. But I dont like hospitals…didnt want to stay. So, that was my night. Fun, huh. How was your’s? Nikki "… lost in the darkness of my own circumstance, criticizing echoes leaving me awake in the night… the barrier and blockades that keep me safe and in control while I pretend that I am okay… "
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Nikki, going AMA is not smart and will work against you with Medicaid. Sarah Justice – When you get what you deserve Mercy – When you don’t get what you deserve Grace – When you get what you don’t deserve "Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs
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(Danas Point) writes: An oxymoronish concept don’t you think? Think about it — Medicaid holding a mental patient accountable for not listening to medical advice? Maybe Matlock with take the case. LOL Dana sends
LOL! Never thought of it that way. However, she was not put in as a psyche patient (maybe that would have helped) and going AMA can force the payment on the recipient. Sarah Justice – When you get what you deserve Mercy – When you don’t get what you deserve Grace – When you get what you don’t deserve "Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs
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Nikki, Hon, after just going through my father’s heart attack, you need to know that your words scare the crap out of me. I know you have your reasons, and I support all that you are, but as someone who cares about you, I want you to find out what is wrong with you. PLEASE (((((Nikki)))))
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Gosh, Nikki — that is so scary, that you did that… It scares me, because I care about you a lot. I know you were panicking and freaked, but this is so serious Nikki. Like Jodie said, this is your heart we’re talking about. I don’t want you to think that I’m being a parent and saying that you were bad… Nikki, it is just that, you leaving, was doing the exact opposite of taking care of you… I am so glad you do have an appointment with a Cardiologist, next week. That is good! Please go back to the ER if you start having problems again… Try and talk, and be open if you are afraid, or scared — tell them that. It’s not worth risking your life! You are to important, to special… :) ((((Nikki))))! Ears The voyage of discovery lies not in finding new landscapes but in having new eyes. – Marcel Proust
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I don’t understand. Why go if you just leave? Nobody "likes" hospitals. This is your heart we’re talking about. The doctors don’t keep people overnight when they’re no chance that they might need emergency medical assistance. I don’t get it, Nikki. You’re in my thoughts. I wish you only the best for your appointment with the cardiologist. Jodie Before you buy.
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Nikki, that was NOT a good idea to leave the hospital! I hope that if you have further chest pains and so on that you’ll go back to the ER again. Heart problems are serious. It’s good that you’ve got an appointment with a cardiologist this coming week. –Connie — "Starving the flesh wastes the spirit." –Kandis Elliot
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I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep, and even though the ER promised me medication, I never got it.
what kind of medication?
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Nikki, Your experience sounds very scary, I will keep you in my prayers. I also wanted to ask you if there were some things that you could tell me about lupus. My doctor suspects pretty strongly that I have it; given, among other things, my seizures and anemia. I got a blood test and haven’t had the results come back to me yet. The last set of tests I took came back saying that I was "borderline" for lupus; that was several months ago. Anyway, if there’s anything that you could tell me, that’s be great. Luv, Piper
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